Not been on here for a while, well it said 63 weeks, wow, thats over a year!!!!!
Gonna be hard tryin to get back into writing things down but gonna try think it might help.

I'd forgotten how much hard work babies are.
Lack of sleep is def not good. All I want is atleast 4 hours undisturbed rest but oh no, not a chance of that.
Baby is doing good, he feeding lots and crying lots, and making me even more stressed, and work want me to come back in about 4 weeks, well they can f*** right off. Can hardly focus now, I can imagine what its gonna be like if I have to go back to work, I'd never get any peace and would have to take baby with me :(
Blokey been brilliant with little 'un, atleast he tries.

One last thing what is it with men and contraception? I tells the blokey no sex unless he wears a condom, blokey then has massive tantrum and refuses to talk bout it, but I wont give up on the matter. I want sex just as much as him but I am not gonna risk it, I dont wanna have another sprog atm. But eventually blokey gives in, I tell him he can have sex now or he can wait 3/4 weeks before I can get any other form of contraception and it works. :)

Oh well best go, baby has found his lungs and is using them excessively.

Current Mood: cranky

On Wednesday 13 Feb at 4.11 am I had a little boy. Thank goodness the pregnancy is finally over and now the hard work starts....
His name is Aston Martyn (blame the blokey), he is sooo small and sweet but cries all the time (and I mean the baby and not the blokey)
He weighed 7lb 6oz.
Got to the hospital at 3 and had him an hour later and was allowed home at 1pm. It would have been earlier but the hospital had misplaced my notes and it took them a couple of hours to find them. Typical.
Am pleased to say everything is good, baby is well and screaming lots. I would be good if I didnt have a damn cold and bad chest.
Blokey has been trying to do his best aswell but he is ill aswell and doesnt wanna pass it on to the baby so fair enough. Kids absolutely adore him except his constant crying.
As soon as I figure out how to do it I will post some pics.

Current Mood: cheerful

Well there is no news really, not much anyway.
Not had the sprog yet, still got 5 weeks left and counting. Grrr he best hurry up and come out soon, it's doing me head right in now.
Work is still crap, suppose to be going on maternity leave in 2 weeks, thats if we can find someone to cover my job, otherwise I will be giving birth whilst working. Atleast that would keep my boss happy.

I need some sleep, if anyone knows where I can purchase some from please get in touch.

Current Mood: drained

I still have no hospital to give birth at yet. My midwife assurred me that it would be sorted this week but nothing has been sorted out yet!
I am not allowed to give birth at the local hospital because of complications during previous labours and that hospital is only midwife led. The next hospital has a total lack of diregard for mothers once you hasve given birth. They apperantly make you sit in a room until you can go home after the birth.
I am not fussy but I wanna atleast feel like a human and not just a robot. Normally I wouldn't listen to idle gossip like that but so many mums have told me the same thing about the hospital that it scares me.
The hospital I would like to give birth at is fully booked, but my midwife is trying her best to get me a bed there (so she says)

At this rate I am gonna end up giving birth in the car in a car park of a hospital somewhere undetermined as yet.

Current Mood: frustrated

OMG, it's almost that time of year again. yes of course, bloody Christmas.
I've spent almost 2 hours tidying thr living room just so we can put the tree up, not finished yet, still gotta hoover and move some furniture round just to fit the tree in the room. All this bother for a damn tree!!!!!
I'm gonna give the ceiling deco's a miss this year, too much hassle to move more furniture around just too put them up. A tree and some lights will suffice. Kids are itching to get the tree out so they can put the deco's on it, and it will look better tomorrow when I have re arranged it and make it look better, but dont tell kids!!

Baby news: I am now 29 weeks gone, it feels like a life time left. He a very active baby, still no hospital to give birth at, at the moment, but hopefully this will be sorted on Tuesday! Lack of sleep is doing me in, I think it's my body way of preparing me for after the birth but I am so knackered all I wanna do is sit and chill. Oh one more thing my ribs are bloody killin',he has kicked fuck outta them already.

Current Mood: exhausted

Life's going sorta well at the moment.
I am 21 weeks pregnant now, and we know we are having a boy.
We have decided to call him Aston-Martin. I quite like Aston but the blokey said we can only name him that if he has Martin as a middle name. Well its better than the blokeys first choice of name for baby. But watch this space as I might change my mind later on.

Still ubable to get into net.goth chatroom. I downloaded xchat but was unsure where to go from there. So sat here most nights bored outta my mind with no one to talk too. I tried various chatrooms but all seemed to be full of perverts (well net.goth is aswell but atleast the people in net.goth could be friendly at times)

Current Mood: chipper

Arghhhh I keep getting terrible headaches. Even painkillers wont shift them.
'pregnancy' headaches so the doctor says.
Hmmmm more like 'blokey giving me stress' headaches.

Only another 20 weeks left to go and I can consume vasts amount of vodka again 'yay'

Current Mood: cranky

So how come when things go wrong, they just dont go wrong, they totally screw up everything?
Firsty my laptop died, so after having to get the bloody thing sorted out, it now finally works but I have lost allsorts. The worst thing was losing all the different web addresses I had accumilated.
Secondly blokey found out yesterday his grandfather has terminal cancer and he is in pieces. I am trying to support him but his answer to any kinda problem is too drink himself into oblivion.
Thirdly is money, or lack of money. Job has slowly gone down hill and I am finding it harder and harder to get by. I am looking for a job until christmas but with being pregnant I dont think I will find anything.

Can anyone from netgoth help me please???
I cant get back onto the netgoth site. The addy has changed and I cant find the new one. Am in need of netgoth abuse and soon :D

Current Mood: drained

Not much happening round here lately again.
But news on the baby front is quite different. Baby is moving loads now, well a bit during the day and loads during evening and and at bedtime. Blood tests came back as everything is ok.
Blokey is hoping the baby is a boy and wants to call him David Murray Nigel (dont ask!!) I've told him 'no way' I say we call him Ben if it's a boy, but he doesn't like it. Blokey wont even entertain the idea that the baby could be a girl.
Got my next scan in 4 weeks and we can find out the sex but not sure I wanna. I got one of each, so does it really matter to me what sex the sprog is gonna be??.

Current Mood: bouncy