pallypop

I return

2009-05-27T06:29:26Z

Not been on here for a while, well it said 63 weeks, wow, thats over a year!!!!!
Gonna be hard tryin to get back into writing things down but gonna try think it might help.

tiredyness

2008-02-27T09:55:03Z

I'd forgotten how much hard work babies are.
Lack of sleep is def not good. All I want is atleast 4 hours undisturbed rest but oh no, not a chance of that.
Baby is doing good, he feeding lots and crying lots, and making me even more stressed, and work want me to come back in about 4 weeks, well they can f*** right off. Can hardly focus now, I can imagine what its gonna be like if I have to go back to work, I'd never get any peace and would have to take baby with me :(
Blokey been brilliant with little 'un, atleast he tries.

One last thing what is it with men and contraception? I tells the blokey no sex unless he wears a condom, blokey then has massive tantrum and refuses to talk bout it, but I wont give up on the matter. I want sex just as much as him but I am not gonna risk it, I dont wanna have another sprog atm. But eventually blokey gives in, I tell him he can have sex now or he can wait 3/4 weeks before I can get any other form of contraception and it works. :)

Oh well best go, baby has found his lungs and is using them excessively.

A baby is born

2008-02-16T15:56:11Z

On Wednesday 13 Feb at 4.11 am I had a little boy. Thank goodness the pregnancy is finally over and now the hard work starts....
His name is Aston Martyn (blame the blokey), he is sooo small and sweet but cries all the time (and I mean the baby and not the blokey)
He weighed 7lb 6oz.
Got to the hospital at 3 and had him an hour later and was allowed home at 1pm. It would have been earlier but the hospital had misplaced my notes and it took them a couple of hours to find them. Typical.
Am pleased to say everything is good, baby is well and screaming lots. I would be good if I didnt have a damn cold and bad chest.
Blokey has been trying to do his best aswell but he is ill aswell and doesnt wanna pass it on to the baby so fair enough. Kids absolutely adore him except his constant crying.
As soon as I figure out how to do it I will post some pics.

News

2008-01-10T19:51:26Z

Well there is no news really, not much anyway.
Not had the sprog yet, still got 5 weeks left and counting. Grrr he best hurry up and come out soon, it's doing me head right in now.
Work is still crap, suppose to be going on maternity leave in 2 weeks, thats if we can find someone to cover my job, otherwise I will be giving birth whilst working. Atleast that would keep my boss happy.

I need some sleep, if anyone knows where I can purchase some from please get in touch.

Idiots

2007-12-05T16:00:17Z

I still have no hospital to give birth at yet. My midwife assurred me that it would be sorted this week but nothing has been sorted out yet!
I am not allowed to give birth at the local hospital because of complications during previous labours and that hospital is only midwife led. The next hospital has a total lack of diregard for mothers once you hasve given birth. They apperantly make you sit in a room until you can go home after the birth.
I am not fussy but I wanna atleast feel like a human and not just a robot. Normally I wouldn't listen to idle gossip like that but so many mums have told me the same thing about the hospital that it scares me.
The hospital I would like to give birth at is fully booked, but my midwife is trying her best to get me a bed there (so she says)

At this rate I am gonna end up giving birth in the car in a car park of a hospital somewhere undetermined as yet.

Christmas time

2007-12-02T12:15:52Z

OMG, it's almost that time of year again. yes of course, bloody Christmas.
I've spent almost 2 hours tidying thr living room just so we can put the tree up, not finished yet, still gotta hoover and move some furniture round just to fit the tree in the room. All this bother for a damn tree!!!!!
I'm gonna give the ceiling deco's a miss this year, too much hassle to move more furniture around just too put them up. A tree and some lights will suffice. Kids are itching to get the tree out so they can put the deco's on it, and it will look better tomorrow when I have re arranged it and make it look better, but dont tell kids!!

Baby news: I am now 29 weeks gone, it feels like a life time left. He a very active baby, still no hospital to give birth at, at the moment, but hopefully this will be sorted on Tuesday! Lack of sleep is doing me in, I think it's my body way of preparing me for after the birth but I am so knackered all I wanna do is sit and chill. Oh one more thing my ribs are bloody killin',he has kicked fuck outta them already.

pallypop @ 2007-10-11T19:33:00

2007-10-11T18:40:50Z

Life's going sorta well at the moment.
I am 21 weeks pregnant now, and we know we are having a boy.
We have decided to call him Aston-Martin. I quite like Aston but the blokey said we can only name him that if he has Martin as a middle name. Well its better than the blokeys first choice of name for baby. But watch this space as I might change my mind later on.

Still ubable to get into net.goth chatroom. I downloaded xchat but was unsure where to go from there. So sat here most nights bored outta my mind with no one to talk too. I tried various chatrooms but all seemed to be full of perverts (well net.goth is aswell but atleast the people in net.goth could be friendly at times)

Arghhhhh

2007-09-25T17:23:53Z

Arghhhh I keep getting terrible headaches. Even painkillers wont shift them.
'pregnancy' headaches so the doctor says.
Hmmmm more like 'blokey giving me stress' headaches.

Only another 20 weeks left to go and I can consume vasts amount of vodka again 'yay'

Life sucks sometimes

2007-09-13T08:37:17Z

So how come when things go wrong, they just dont go wrong, they totally screw up everything?
Firsty my laptop died, so after having to get the bloody thing sorted out, it now finally works but I have lost allsorts. The worst thing was losing all the different web addresses I had accumilated.
Secondly blokey found out yesterday his grandfather has terminal cancer and he is in pieces. I am trying to support him but his answer to any kinda problem is too drink himself into oblivion.
Thirdly is money, or lack of money. Job has slowly gone down hill and I am finding it harder and harder to get by. I am looking for a job until christmas but with being pregnant I dont think I will find anything.

Can anyone from netgoth help me please???
I cant get back onto the netgoth site. The addy has changed and I cant find the new one. Am in need of netgoth abuse and soon :D

Some news

2007-08-30T20:02:14Z

Not much happening round here lately again.
But news on the baby front is quite different. Baby is moving loads now, well a bit during the day and loads during evening and and at bedtime. Blood tests came back as everything is ok.
Blokey is hoping the baby is a boy and wants to call him David Murray Nigel (dont ask!!) I've told him 'no way' I say we call him Ben if it's a boy, but he doesn't like it. Blokey wont even entertain the idea that the baby could be a girl.
Got my next scan in 4 weeks and we can find out the sex but not sure I wanna. I got one of each, so does it really matter to me what sex the sprog is gonna be??.

pallypop @ 2007-08-19T18:13:00

2007-08-19T17:19:51Z

Recently had my first scan. Baby is fine and I am now 14 weeks pregnany (only another 26 weeks left). Sickness has eased up now. Started to feel baby move about 2/3 weeks ago. Mother-in-law reckons its way too early too feel baby move, ha what does she know. It's not like I've had kids before is it now. lol.
Life's been awful round here, I am absolutely broke, we need to get a bigger car now but have no money to pay for one. Finance people wont let me have one cos I dont earn enough. Need to win the lottery or something. or find meself a rich sugar daddy (I wish).

pallypop @ 2007-08-09T21:54:00

2007-08-09T20:56:30Z

Just to let you all know, I am still alive, just been busy with stuffs.
I may at some point make a proper entry and let you know any juicy gossip I have.

Jobs

2007-07-29T19:50:09Z

Man, my job is pathetic, the work is crap and the pay is awful.
Cant even get another job atm.
I am earning less than the minimum wage and they think thats ok.
Stupid f***ing self employment.

Blokey told me to write this, so i will. He says he's great in bed. I say he's only great in bed when he's sleeping cos he lets me have all the blankets. :)

Started to wake during the nights and it's driving me insane, I am waking round 3 and then not able to get back to sleep, perhaps my body is perparing me for whats to come. :(

Life's been quiet

2007-07-22T19:42:33Z

How come sometimes life passes you by and you dont seem to notice???
I have not been upto much, not been out anywhere interesting and not spoken to anyone interesting.
Boy, I so need to get a life.

And still having problems getting into netgoth, the kind Evoot gave me another java script to get me in but it doesnt always work, nevermind.

Headache

2007-07-13T20:48:50Z

I've had this damned headache since Monday and I cant seem to shift it.
I've taken as much painkillers as I can, but it's still there.
Perhaps it's my body's way of getting over the lack of vodka in my system.
Or just that I got a damn cold and that I suffered really bad with headaches during my last pregnancy.
Whatever, think I need to spend more time sleeping and less time awake :D

Damned Internets

2007-07-04T18:04:58Z

Ffs still unable to get into netgoth, damn stupid internet connection.
/me stabs the internet lots and lots

I want some vodka, and some chinese food, but cannot have either. Grrrrrrr

What didn't come in pairs on Noahs arc??
Worms, they came in apples,

pallypop @ 2007-07-03T20:55:00

2007-07-03T20:03:51Z

WTF "internet explorer is unable to connect you to uk_goths" ffs how on earth am I suppose to entertain myself now??

Think I need to find myself a hobby, oh wait I got one, but he in work atm :P

Pregnancy is sorta going ok, I am still very unsure about it, I wanna be happy but it's just not happening. Still need to tell my parents but hey got another 7 months to tell them yet.
Morning sickness has kicked in now and the tiredness is driving me crazy. I just wanna sleep all the time, but I cant. I'll eventually get my butt in to gear and go see the doctor (maybe)
Went to Toys r us the other day to look at baby stuff, musta looked like a madwoman, I was walking round looking at the baby stuff muttering to myself about how much I hated babies. I shouldn't have gone there, it just made me feel worse about the whole pregnancy thing.

Bad Weather

2007-07-01T16:44:09Z

Grrrr all this bad weather is seriously affecting my interwebs.
Not happy!!!!!!! no interwebs make me seriously grumpy.
Anymore rain and I gonna have to build meself a boat.

Boredem

2007-06-24T20:51:43Z

Can you die of bordem??
I think I might, there's nothing on the Tv, not much on the interwebs and dont think my eyes could take some reading.
I would have some vodka, but think it for the best if I dont. oh well vodka will have to be replaced with ice cream and chocolate, so it's not all bad.
Inane ramblings over with now.

Anyone got any cake???

pallypop @ 2007-06-23T19:10:00

2007-06-23T18:17:08Z

Hmmmm, I soooo hate being pregnant, it's one of the worst feelings ever. I hated it both times before so no surprising I am not enjoying it now. The sickness is awful, if i am not being sick, I am feeling sick which is one of the worst feelings ever. Bloody stomach pains are doing my head in aswell. Dont know if I can put up with all this crap for another 7 1/2 months.
Oh and the blokey has chosen the most awful names ever, if it's a boy. Gonna have to put my foot down there and suggest some names that are a bit better.

Why is it only women get piles??
cos when god created man, he created the perfect arsehole

pallypop @ 2007-06-19T20:08:00

2007-06-19T19:11:17Z

Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow, we are taking the kids on a day out, but we got wellies for the kids just in case.

Not spent much time with the kids lately so hopefully we will have a good day.

Pray for good weather

pallypop @ 2007-06-17T16:02:00

2007-06-17T15:03:59Z

I need vodka, please anyone, give me vodka.

pallypop @ 2007-06-16T20:38:00

2007-06-16T19:40:53Z

It's a Saturday night and I find myself babysitting 6 kids and only one of them is mine. 5 of the kids are sleeping here (dont know where yet tho).
Grrrr bang goes my Sunday morning lie in :(

Vodka is now needed.

pallypop @ 2007-06-15T23:05:00

2007-06-15T22:15:25Z

After yesterdays shock annoncement, I am currently feeling very negative about this bloody pregnancy.
Blokey told everyone he knew by late last night, to which he then said, "it's your decision, only you can decide what you wanna do, I'll stand by you whatever you decide" hmmmmm me thinks not.
By telling all and sundry I now feel backed into a corner. My two previous pregnancy's were both difficult, i.e total lack of support from the fathers and now as I sit here drinking more vodka than I should, I think do I really wanna end up as a single parent to 3 kids instead of 2.
Blokey aint the most settled sorta person,and I cant help but wondering if he will leave like the fathers did. :( I know I shouldn't be thinking like this but past experiences have made me not very trusting in the men folk.

why cant life be easy???

Grrrrrrrr again

2007-06-14T18:46:00Z

Just found out I am pregnant. I dont know whether to be happy or sad, I'm just being indifferent atm. Blokey has been very unnerving calm bout it. I'll explain circumstances now, me and blokey have only been together for 4 weeks (yes the kid is his). I told him when we got together that all I need to do is look at a bloke and I conceive. Well a bit more than look. And now it has happened.
He's already told his parents and sister, no chance of us discussing anything other than having the baby now, but if he's happy then why not. He has been very smug about it, but insists it's my decision. How can I say anything when he brings up the fact that it's his first kid.

Just gonna drink more vodka (I know I shouldn't but tough) and chill.

How much vodka does it take to make a baby???
Answers on a postcard!!!!!lol